Monday, 29 September 2008


I really really must learn to go to bed at a decent time, I look so old and ill and I am not that old or ill.
I need Gilllian McKeith and her parsley smoothies.
Just having a cuppa and playing some bingo then I am up to bed. its nearly 3.30 am, I must learn how to change the time on this blog, its always the wrong time.
Today started off horrible, I got up far to late, the kids had been up quite early but didn't think to wake me or get me a nice cuppa, I woke up to a complete mess and a very bad mood, felt ill and just generally depressed and fed up with everything.

So I bucked up after a few cups of tea, made some phone calls about money to the bank and child benefit/council tax etc, theres nothing else I can do at the moment but they were all very nice and as helpful as they could be.

In the quest to save money, we went to Tescos and only bought value stuff and cat food, I swear that cat gets better fed than I do, but she won't touch the cheap stuff. Luckily her food was on special offer. I made a meatloaf that one of the girls on fluff sent me, it looks delicious and I tweaked it a bit, we are just waiting for it to cook now. I shall have a tiny piece with loads of veggies and brown rice.

Me and the kids have had a good chat about how to save money, turning lights off etc, stop expecting treats every time we go out, last week we managed to only put £10 of petrol in the car and we walked the rest.

I feel better now, a bit run down, but better, I am still worried about money but I can't do anymore than I have done, I have tried to get in touch with the ESA but guess what I can't get through, I will try and do it tomorrow.

So meatloaf and boiled potatoes and veggies for the kids, I am having a small piece of meatloaf, brown rice and salad.

I might go for a walk tonight just local to clear my head a bit, its spinning, I have so much to do.

Saturday, 27 September 2008

The first day

I know its the first day, but so far I haven't done bad, ok, so the diet isn't great but with little money we have to eat what we have in the house, Monday I can go shopping.

But I have put some oomph into everything, I usually hang out a bit of washing and have to sit down on one of the garden chairs, this time I just hung the whole lot out, I know that sounds daft but for me its hard, I did it though, was throughly out of breath by the time I finished, but isn't that the idea with exercise to be a bit out of breath.

I have stopped drinking so much tea and drank a lot more water, I am not going to stop everything because thats where I went wrong before, I am still having my cheesy panini on Fridays at ice skating because I love them, but I will eat a breakfast and have a salad for dinner in the evenings on Fridays, its going to be a once a week treat. I am not calling it a diet, its more a change in lifestyle. I am going to have a lot more salads and healthier eating so a panini once a week is not going to hurt.

I am going to get my hair cut when I get paid, that always makes me feel better, and I have dug out my favourite blouse that I wore years ago, its obscene now, I can just about get it on let alone do it up, but thats my goal, when I sort the pictures out I will take a picture of it.

Talking of pictures, I am getting Steven to take one of me now, it won't be pretty believe me, but I feel that you need to know how I am changing so you need a before so that the after will look even better.

This blog is about a change in lifestyle as well, not just dieting, so we are going to sort the house out, going to decorate, and me and Steven are both going to be sorting out jobs as well as money. I have just learned about ESA for people like Steven, so that he can get some money while getting help looking for work but once in work he gets support, that sounds great, just what he needs. I am looking at getting a part time job so that I can continue to home educate. I also have decided that I need something for me, I love card making so I am going to look at an adult education class or a class at a craft centre to help me with that, now the kids are a bit older I can take myself off somewhere and have a couple of hours of just me. If I get really good at card making I can turn that into an income.

My first posting

I have set this blog up today to help me in my quest to improve my lifestyle, I need encouragement and support and I thought by setting up a blog this would help me.

So what do I want to change, well my whole life really, I am overweight, unhealthy, no confidence, unorganised, in debt, no money and I have had enough of it, no more I say, I can get a job, I can lose weight, I can sort my money out, I can and I will, its time to change.

So help me out, give me some encouragement, please bear with me first of all as I learn how to blog properly and make my site look a tad more interesting, this is the first blog I have ever done. I will add some pictures with the help of my son and just generally figure it all out somehow,